Those evasive feelings...

“Only Faith beholds that all is well.” -- S.R. Lysaght

How are you doing? Have you ever felt somewhat stuck... perhaps thinking too much about how to answer that evasive question? I do. Indeed, it becomes evasive if we focus upon that minute membrane called Feelings that are complex... restless little creatures that stir in the night.

Well, in the last while I’ve been learning to accept REALITY (a little more) for what life is rather than what I want it to be. It's been a vital part of cultivating a more affirmative philosophy of life, because no matter how intense or annoying circumstances can be, those circumstances make up the present that I live out from day to day.

Denying the uncomfortable realities is a denial of living, because it makes us want to fast forward life only to the places where we experience peace and harmony rather than discomfort, conflict or upset. Whether we like it or not our marching orders are to build bridges over the rough terrain of life in order to make progress don't you think?

Many of my Italian relatives (with the best intentions) often fed my sister and I ideas of entitlement... that we should insist on an easier life and thus showing little tolerance during the "hard times". This leads to self pity and resentment. No matter how much it eats at us, no matter how annoying, we need to face the facts of life and put our wishful thinking aside of how we prefer life to be.

I think this is a remedy against anger, self-pity, bitterness, etc… I think resentment is in fact … the residue that comes from demanding that life to be different than it is… and so we allow our energy to be drained by such fantasy as being light, harmonious and totally pain-free. I find it so rarely works that way.

What are your thoughts on this subject? How are you doing?

TR 2009 ©

Warrior Types...

"Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow that talent to the dark place where it leads.”

The Southern Italian culture I grew up in was composed largely of people who were warrior types (possessing differing intensities): loud, hard-hitting, intrusive, paternalistic. My relatives were no exception. In the midst of this dominant personality trait, I was born: someone internally intense, yet quiet, inconspicuous, and reflective. This worried my relatives to no end and I was stigmatized for not being so extroverted as they.

When someone celebrated a birthday, baptism, first communion or graduation, everyone was expected to visit in large numbers to show their support and warmth. Food, music and dance were the center of all our family events.

Reviewing my Italian roots has proven challenging especially because I had no language to define or reframe my life experiences back then. The path to freedom began when reading, "The Highly Sensitive Person: How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You." by Elaine N. Aron.
Thanks to this author I have begun to see heightened sensitivity as a strength rather than a handicap. For most of my life I knew I was different and even reproached myself for being that way. It never occurred to me it wasn't my personality trait that was the problem but the cultural cruelty and the prejudices toward gentleness. Aron says,

"The signs of prejudice against sensitivity are easy enough to spot once you read between the lines, to catch those descriptions of sensitivity as a 'syndrome' or that such people are 'out of balance' or 'frequently lose control' or are over-reacting or 'unable to perceive accurately' due to bodies with 'excessive' this or 'abnormal' that. Remember these are usually medical judgments from a warrior-king's perspective of what is out, lost, over accurate, excessive and abnormal. Do remember, however, that there may be times when you truly do feel you have lost your balance, are out of control, and are overreacting.

Highly sensitive persons in a highly stimulating world are bound to, especially those who've had a very stressful childhood or personal history... remember it is not your trait that is to blame, but the world into which you and it were born, and are constantly being challenged to adapt or change."Often friends will comment about their sensitivity as if it is a fault and what they are doing is reflecting the cultural bias that looks upon sensitivity as less mentally healthy. Again, Aron explains that even doctors shun introversion as if it were a disease: “Furthermore, for some doctors especially, sensitivity is a dreaded weakness they had to repress in order to survive medical school. So they project that part of themselves (and the weakness they associate with it) onto patients with any sign of it at all.”

Those of us with this trait can be introverted or extroverted. We are the resident artists, musicians, composers, writers, counselors and pastors. Having a more sensitive constitution we can be more easily bruised and misunderstood in a society where bravery, cool-headedness, mental and physical toughness and determination are highly esteemed. Of course these are excellent characteristics and this blog is not about diminishing certain personality traits against another.

Those who are socially extroverted individuals sometimes find it hard to acknowledge their sensitivity traits. King David seems to be one of those rare individuals in the Bible who was a highly skilled warrior yet at the same time was artistically sensitive writing the most amazing psalms ever written through the ages! David was extraordinarily creative. In relationships, those with heightened sensitivity are usually attentive and thoughtful partners with acute listening skills and compassionate hearts. Most are not only intellectually gifted but highly intuitive. They enjoy a more simple self-aware lifestyle focusing on staying fit and eating right.Anyway, take a look at the list below and see whether any of these descriptions apply to you. Notice, however that this list includes many strengths!

Do you get overwhelmed by stimuli such as lights, noises, and smells?
Do other people’s moods and emotions deeply affect you?
Are you easily startled?
Do you become uneasy when someone is watching you complete a task?
Do you become tired easily after a “normal” day of activity?
Are you aware of other things in your environment that most other people are not aware of?
Do you become agitated or anxious when you have a lot of tasks to do and not enough time to complete all of them?
Do you avoid disturbing or violent movies, books, or T.V. shows?
Do you feel the need to escape and retreat when there is too much going on around you?Are you deeply interested in the arts or music?
Do you dislike changes in your life?
Do you enjoy delicate tastes, scents, sounds, soft fabrics, or beautiful works of art?
Have you always been labeled as shy or sensitive by other people?
Are you overly conscientious?
Do you seem to be more sensitive to pain than other people?
Are you sensitive to certain foods such as foods containing caffeine, sugar or alcohol?
Do you become unpleasant when you are hungry?
Do you easily sense the energies of places or situations?
Are you easily touched by others' experience, stories of kindness, and courage?
Are you attracted to the deeper things such as spirituality, self-development and philosophy?
Do you need time alone?
Are your feelings easily bruised?
Do you have a vivid imagination?
(All above questions were formulated by by Elaine N. Aron)

-- Reflector